Monday, May 30, 2011

To tweet or not to tweet......

It is strange to see others being or to be directly attacked  online. Any kind of attack is horrible enough. But online is a special kind of ugly as the person hides behind fake names. Some people seem to have nothing better to do with their evenings after work or on their weekends than to wage these blind wars on people they either do not know at all,  maybe thought they knew many, many moons ago or think they know because I had a life in the public eye for almost 30 years.

I have never presented myself here to be anything other than the flawed human being I am. Doing the best I can. And sometimes failing miserably, as we as people  do....  It seems so strange...... if one hates me and thinks me such a vile human being that they still  come to this space, MY space to see what I have to say. I personally stay away from things and people that revolt me. Like I rarely watch the news because it seems all lies designed to keep us all in fear. And do not promote relationships when people do not respect me or my loved or have boundary issues.

It is hard to imagine that anyone would have these feelings.... as I like the rest of the world have low self-esteem. So, no, no one cares that much about me or what I do or write...or could be obsessed???!!! Why??? Isn't life complicated and difficult enough without engaging in this shit. Swimming in this kind of verbal vomit??? It is for me anyway. And hating requires a lot of energy.

 On top of that, it is so destructive to one's own life and the people around them that they  generate this kind of  verbal warfare. I was  always someone in my life who called things as I saw them.  Even if I was wrong. I made a point of sharing MY truth.  This is something that I still do. But I as I am older now I realize that it is just that, MY truth. Not THE truth. For as I am fond of sharing.....Truth has many faces.

And where for me it IS important and essential to share it still.  It is equally if not more important to use kindness in my delivery. And to note when my perspective is not asked for or required at all. It comes  for me from not feeling seen or being heard as a child. So as I grew into my 20's.... I would be heard. Yet aging teaches us, thank God and this is where I am with it now. But it is a constant work in progress.

I had left behind twitter for a bit of time because I was tired of the verbal assaults and endless harassment I received there. A place where I simply hoped to promote my book. And encountered for the most part some incredibly kind birds....  All and all, this experience has actually been a blessing. I have learned so much.    I have had many surprising people and forces come to my aid as this kind of behavior is literally illegal. Not only  on a karmic level, as everything you do comes back to you......... But did you know that EVERYTHING one does online is recorded??!!!  Even if you erase it, there is a record of it.    Any amount of erasing means nothing.....

IN this instance, I don't mind Big Brother...hahaha

My book will be out in the world. And I will not need twitter to promote it. It will be as honest and clear as I have always been here. My power and my voice will not be diminished through lies and venomous attacks of any kind.  Many guardian angels are firmly in place, defending me.  An interesting fact is that I find myself praying for people who commit these acts. Everyday. It must be hard to live with that ugly stuff inside. I, too, have dealt with great rage inside of myself at times. But I worked hard to get to its source not misdirect and project it onto others.

To keep my side of the street clean. This is what I work to do. And will continue.

So look inside when you read my shares.....decide from your own intuition what is real. This IS me, MY blog and the sharing of MY truth. So if you are at all interested THIS is the place to come. Thanks for all the support.

Love and Light....xxxoooxxxooo



Saturday, May 14, 2011

It's a new day......

I cannot teach someone to be more emotionally open and sharing. I cannot make someone come out of their self imposed prison. As  children we are put into these cells. Each bar is painfully built through every day of our lives and the ignorance and abuse of our parents and society.  It grows and grows until the jail is complete. An ugly gray box where light really enters......  A ugly, cold place that we have been condemned to.

The lightness of childhood lost, all at once, one is in their teenage yrs.  At this age they seek to break out but have no tools to do so.  They search for everything from the outside...... So they go deeper  spiraling to their demise. They are more self involved, too self involved . With a strange certainty that they know everything and everyone else is wrong. Bombarded by hormones makes it worse.  They still live in their cell but paint it with delusions and lies in a spectrum of colors. But it is still just the same jail. They have learned nothing of how to get out.

Years pass, layers upon layers of cover are formed. You are dying to see light again. The true connected light that you saw and felt as a child while the cell was still in its beginning stages. You continue the search in all kinds of external places seeking to fill the wrong hole. Left feeling worse than when the journey began, finding nothing......

If one is lucky you start to break out. You look honestly at yourself and your life. You chip away at these bars beginning to have the courage to understand how they were built and by whom. Life assists you by kicking your ass when you stray too far from the truth. You work.... You become someone who as difficult as it is, someone upon who NOTHING is lost.

That means breaking out of the collective lies. Of your lies, of your family, of society as a whole. It is nothing less than a violent break out. You fight those bars, you wrestle them, you saw at them, and slowly one by one they come down. You need only remove a few to escape although you had to live through the torture of each single one being built. A few choice truths being brought to light, the core ones and you can be free.

Then you must share...... You must share your discoveries....... You must be open to your brothers and sisters of the planet. We all learn from one having the courage to actually share their truth. Not shamefully hide it away.  That is living in the cell again after all. Hiding behind those masks.  The days of all of that are done. Change of a magnitude unfathomable is happening now. Jump on board. You will be supported in a way you could never imagine. A multitude of ways......

But it takes intense commitment and courage. Many will be left behind on your journey. I have left many family members behind on mine. We will meet again  someday in another place. But here they will not hold me back. I will and have moved out of my cell onto truer truths. I encourage you to do the same.

An unexamined life is not worth living. Break out of your cell.....

Love and Light....xxxooo