It is strange to see others being or to be directly attacked online. Any kind of attack is horrible enough. But online is a special kind of ugly as the person hides behind fake names. Some people seem to have nothing better to do with their evenings after work or on their weekends than to wage these blind wars on people they either do not know at all, maybe thought they knew many, many moons ago or think they know because I had a life in the public eye for almost 30 years.
I have never presented myself here to be anything other than the flawed human being I am. Doing the best I can. And sometimes failing miserably, as we as people do.... It seems so strange...... if one hates me and thinks me such a vile human being that they still come to this space, MY space to see what I have to say. I personally stay away from things and people that revolt me. Like I rarely watch the news because it seems all lies designed to keep us all in fear. And do not promote relationships when people do not respect me or my loved or have boundary issues.
It is hard to imagine that anyone would have these feelings.... as I like the rest of the world have low self-esteem. So, no, no one cares that much about me or what I do or write...or could be obsessed???!!! Why??? Isn't life complicated and difficult enough without engaging in this shit. Swimming in this kind of verbal vomit??? It is for me anyway. And hating requires a lot of energy.
On top of that, it is so destructive to one's own life and the people around them that they generate this kind of verbal warfare. I was always someone in my life who called things as I saw them. Even if I was wrong. I made a point of sharing MY truth. This is something that I still do. But I as I am older now I realize that it is just that, MY truth. Not THE truth. For as I am fond of sharing.....Truth has many faces.
And where for me it IS important and essential to share it still. It is equally if not more important to use kindness in my delivery. And to note when my perspective is not asked for or required at all. It comes for me from not feeling seen or being heard as a child. So as I grew into my 20's.... I would be heard. Yet aging teaches us, thank God and this is where I am with it now. But it is a constant work in progress.
I had left behind twitter for a bit of time because I was tired of the verbal assaults and endless harassment I received there. A place where I simply hoped to promote my book. And encountered for the most part some incredibly kind birds.... All and all, this experience has actually been a blessing. I have learned so much. I have had many surprising people and forces come to my aid as this kind of behavior is literally illegal. Not only on a karmic level, as everything you do comes back to you......... But did you know that EVERYTHING one does online is recorded??!!! Even if you erase it, there is a record of it. Any amount of erasing means nothing.....
IN this instance, I don't mind Big Brother...hahaha
My book will be out in the world. And I will not need twitter to promote it. It will be as honest and clear as I have always been here. My power and my voice will not be diminished through lies and venomous attacks of any kind. Many guardian angels are firmly in place, defending me. An interesting fact is that I find myself praying for people who commit these acts. Everyday. It must be hard to live with that ugly stuff inside. I, too, have dealt with great rage inside of myself at times. But I worked hard to get to its source not misdirect and project it onto others.
To keep my side of the street clean. This is what I work to do. And will continue.
So look inside when you read my shares.....decide from your own intuition what is real. This IS me, MY blog and the sharing of MY truth. So if you are at all interested THIS is the place to come. Thanks for all the support.
Love and Light....xxxoooxxxooo
"THIS ABOVE ALL: TO THINE OWN SELF BE TRUE, AND IT MUST FOLLOW, AS NIGHT THE DAY, THOU CANST NOT THEN BE FALSE TO ANY MAN."